VIDEO VIXEN




Guys.. I'm coming to you all, and asking that you pray for me. Nothing is particularly wrong. Its just that because I have changed, doesn't mean the people that know me have. I judge no one. But I am feeling so judged. I am such a new person thanks to being saved by Jesus. I realized that I didn't choose him, but he chose me.

 If I had it my way, I would be the number one video vixen of all time for rap and r&b videos. I would be modeling. I would be on the covers of magazines.  I might be shaking it everywhere, except where I am suppose to be.  I thought I would definitely be dancing as one of Usher's background dancers, or be the lead girl in one of Omarion's videos. I just knew I would be in one of Jay Z's videos. I had it all planned out. I was going to be "that" chick. I prayed all the time that I would make it into that type of industry. I thought dancing was my world. My "career" took off for a moment.. but it never really got off the ground. And I'm glad God didn't let that happen to me at that time. Notice I said at at that time?

There is nothing wrong with dancing or modeling.. but Lord only knows how far I would have taken it in the wrong direction. I still want to model and dance, because I still have dreams. I always wanted to model for B.E.T'S RIP THE RUNWAY, and if it didn't compromise my integrity and character I would RIP THE RUNWAY WITH B.E.T AT THE FIRST CHANCE I GET.  The difference now is that I don't want to gain the whole world to lose my soul. The last thing I thought I would be doing is encouraging and speaking the word of God to others. It is God's purpose, not mine. I am still a sinner. I am farrrrrrrrrr from perfect. I am just a person who understands....

With a big smile, and a happy heart, and a big pat on the back, because we are growing beyond belief!

God bless. Crystal