FEAR FAIRIES

Happy New Year's Eve my good people!

Yesterday I didn't post. Since I have started blogging I have been met with a lot of different feelings, and emotions. I have received positive responses, and I am so thankful for that. However, I can't avoid the Fear Fairies.

Fear Fairies

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• What are they? People who may or may not know you. Do not be surprised if you know them.
• Fear Fairies tend to show up when you are about to take a stand for what you believe in, or about to try and achieve what they know to be the impossible.
• They will use their status (friend, brother, sister, Supervisor, etc) to instill fear.
• Oh how they enjoy instilling their own values, and belief into us, and love to intimidate. They may or not even know their even doing this.
• Often times they will find every reason why you can't, instead of why you can.

I almost considered taking the blog down.. I cried, prayed, cried, and prayed some more. Here are some of things people felt they needed to let me know.

Crystal you better be careful, and  make sure you come see me first before you decide to discuss me or use my name.

Crystal you better be careful of what you say because everyone can see it.

Crystal you will be upsetting people, and be prepared to have havoc come your way.

Crystal your writing skills aren't the best.

Crystal you sound angry at times.

Crystal what are people going to think?

Record scratch for real now. The fish have stopped swimming to entertain this nonsense.  You think I didn't consider all of this before I started this blog? I'm not running nothing by nobody, cause it's my feelings, and thoughts. Yeah, this blog could upset some people. I'm not blogging to win an essay contest, or to be graded. I thought about what others might think. I'm not angry. Yes, I realize I am exposing my life.

Let the new beginning of 2012 be the year that we take on the Fear Fairies. Fear is not of the Lord. Take it to God. Pray for everyone. Be of good spirit. When no one sees you or hears you, he does. Believe in you. Love even when they don't. Just because the majority agrees, doesn't mean their right.

You are not everyone.

 You are one.

 One Jesus.

 One life.

One baptism. 

 One beautiful person you are.

With God nothing is impossible. (Luke1:37)

If you remain in me and my words in you, you may ask whatever you want and it will be given to you. (John15:7)

There is no fear in love. Perfect love drives away fear, for fear has to do with punishment; those who fear do not know perfect love. (1John4:18)

For I know what my plans for you are, plans to save you and not to harm you, plans to give you a future and to give you hope. (Jeremiah29:11)

Happy New Year, and God bless you.
Big smile, and with my loving arms wrapped around you, and a pat on the back cause you are doing great!!!!

I'm Going to Let it Shine!

How do you view this picture?

There are lots of way to view this image. One way to see it as gloomy, and the leaves are gone off the tree.The tree looks dead, and nothing is green. It looks like nothing can or will grow, or even live for that fact. The trees are hanging from all the snow that is piled on it. The sky is cloudy. Negative situations tend to feel like this pictures looks..

Or, the other way we could view this picture, is that, there is a season for everything. The trees are tall, which means that they constantly growing no matter what the season is. Even if the season is winter. This picture screams out belief, because when the season changes to Spring the leaves will come back, and be green, and that is a wonderful sign of life. Or to simplify it, this whole picture means there is life.. and as long as we have life, we have a purpose..

Both views could be accepted, but the one thing that is still coming through is the sunshine. The light that will never go out. Just like Jesus's light. No matter how sad, lonely, confused, heartbroken, ignored, stressed, and tired we are, Jesus's light will continue to shine through you. Because he loves you. He loves you more than anything you could ever try to dream of. There is a time, and season in all of our lives. Our purpose is to welcome each season, and see it with all the blessings we have, no matter what it looks like.  Walk by faith, not by sight.

Cornithians 4:6 For, God who said, "Let there be light in the darkness," has made us understand that this light is the brightness of the glory of God that is seen in the face of Jesus Christ.

John 1:5 The light shines through the darkness, and the darkness can never extinguish it.

May your light shine, and never be turned off, or dimmed. Your purpose has already been granted, you just have to access it. You, and every person is worthy. Say out loud I am worthy, and I have a light to shine!

Big warm hug, and smile. Until next time.

Crystal

Forgiveness

Happy day to you,

Thank you for visiting my blog, and if you are here, you are here for a reason.

The reason why I named this site Purpose Granted is because, the purpose has been granted to everyone. Your dreams and desires have already been granted. All you have to do is access it.

I believe in order to fulfill your purpose you have to forgive yourself, and others. Today start believing that you are worth being forgiven, and that you freely forgive others. Forgiving doesn't mean you forget, but allows you to become free. Everyday you shouldn't have to wake up with a list of people or situations that you can't forgive. If you do, you will find that you are just bootcamping the negative energy into your spirit. And essentially holding yourself spritually and emotionally hostage.

Luke 34 Jesus said, "Father, forgive these people, because they don't know what they are doing."

A big hug from me today!!!! You are worthy.

Until next time.  God Bless

Crystal

SEX/PART ONE

UGHHHHHHHHHH! I can't stand this subject.
 Yeah ugh!! As you all know I am in my thirties. With that being said, I was once was a young woman.. In my twenties.. I did all of that "sex" and mistaking sex the whole time for love, or that would make a man love me. Ugh not. I don't regret my past.. but when I turned 30 a light bulb went off. I'm like you know what self? I am better than that. Just because a man says all the right words, sends flowers, or takes you to dinner doesn't mean he gets a first class ticket to the best of me. I thought I had been cautious before. But now I am even more weary.. Jesus helped me examine sex more closely..

I believe it is two spirits combining. Think about it, its the closest someone can get to you physically. Someone actually enters your body. I date here and there, and I make it known that I am not about the sex. That doesn't mean I don't want to. I call myself a Christian, but let me be the first to say I may have sex before marriage. I don't want to, and I keep myself outta of situations that would even lead to anything beyond a kiss. Hey I am in thirties, and I know I am in my prime... but I need to be valued first.. can you know me first? Do you even know my last name? Where I am from? That I love Jesus first? Do you know that I am broken when it comes to men? Do you even care? And the list goes on.

 Everyday someone tells me the reason that I am single, is because I am not willing to have sex right off the back or anytime soon.. Really? That's a damn shame. I look like the odd one out. I am the girl with no date at the Christmas party, I am the single woman at WalMart shopping, I am the girl on a Friday or Saturday night playing online poker or BurgerShop at home, I am the girl who is ill and going to the hospital alone... all because I won't have sex???  Ridiculous. Yeah its frustrating, at times embarrassing.. at times lonely. But I believe, that there is still a man for me that will value me and what I am about. I know my worth, and its been said that everyone has their "price". Yeah I have a price, its called my worth. And before anyone sends a nasty comment, about all of this... please remember I have been there.. done that..I am speaking for me. I feel so sexy right now in my life. I am ready to go there.. but only on my terms. Sex has left me feeling disrespected, low, unworthy, shame, empty, mad, angry, and all of that nonsense, because I chose to believe, when the person didn't believe in me at all, and never really took the time to see me. I am not knocking the next person by far about whether they have sex, with who, or what or how... for myself I have to take care of me. I have had some of the worse so called relationships, and I am over that. If I keep doing the same thing, and getting the same negative result, I must say,"God fix me, I am the problem". I mean really, there is some song out now talking about "better with the lights off". Lights off to me, means satan and his bullies are really up to no good. How about "better with lights on"? That's right I said it. Lights on!

God calls for me to shine my light.  Not to turn it down just a little, dim it, just a get a night light, put a flash on it. No way! If a man comes near me with the even the tiniest  intentions of sex, please believe I will be like one of those security, flood lights, used to shine on people when you walk up to someones house or property at night. You know what I am talking about? As soon as you step on the property, that big light starts shining, and starts beaming on you like you stole something. (I am laughing now) (some people are okay with just a porch light) But I am that house. As soon as you step on to my property, I am going to shine my blinding beaming light, and for those who come to do harm, will run. Those who know me will stay.

(I suggest reading all of Samuel 13 to get a the whole picture)
Samuel 13:14,15 But Amnon wouldn't listen to her, and since he was stronger than she was, he raped her. Then suddenly Amnon's love turned to hate, and he hated her even more than he had loved her. "Get out of here!" he snarled at her.

Love vs Lust
Love does not demand its own way, lust does.
Love is patient, lust requires immediate satisfaction.

Until next time. God bless.

Time? What time?

Time. What a precious thing? (Record scratch)  Time can be a very vicious thing. Time seems to be something no one has anymore. Thats interesting because, we believe we "have" time, but did you notice, we can't buy time, we can't buy anymore time, we don't have time?  It is just a measure that we use to clock our every move. Gotta get my daughter to the dentist, help my son with his pre college homework (even though he is only in the fifth grade) mail the bills off, do the laundry, run errands, oh yeah I can't forget get to work, and be sure I give them a hunderd percent of my "time", get blood up from the bathroom from my son's bloody nose, scroll through the daily news (being sure to only click on the stuff that looks important, because I don't have that much "time", text close friends good morning, remind my daughter to brush her teeth three times a day since she has braces, get the oil changed, renew the registration on the car, and the list goes on. The world has run out of so much "time" that we now communicate nonverbally, and society is okay with that. Not me. What happen to picking up the phone, and saying Merry Christmas? What happened to actually mailing a birthday invitation, instead of sending an Evite? What happen to walking into a store and trying clothes on, feeling the the texture of the garment, and interacting with people? Now you can just shop online. Even though I like this next one.. it still hits my point.. The dreaded parent teacher conference, and thats when you would see your kid's grade, now the school gives me a link and I can see what work they haven't turned in, daily assignments, what they ate, and yes grades. Hilarious. Why, because I don't have the "time". I know its hard to "find", and "make" time.

What if you had no "time". What would you do?

If you had an additional hour to your day, what would you really do with it?

Genesis 6:3 Then the Lord said, "My Spirit will not put up with humans for such a long time for they are only mortal flesh.

I believe the Lord is the only one who gives time. We can't bargain, buy, beg our way for more time. But, what we can do with time, is spend every moment being thankful for the little things that we think take up our time. I challenge us to see every moment as greatfulness... The next "time" we have a flat tire, instead of it being a nuisance, let it serve as a reminder that it must be nice to have a car, the next "time your heart is broken, and it hurts so bad, let it be a reminder that you are able to feel, the next "time" you feel like you can't take another day at your job, let it be a reminder that you are employed in this tough economy, the next time you feel as if you just can't go on, let it be it a  reminder that we actually have the choice to move forward.

Until next time.. God bless.