I'm back!!!

Hello everyone!

Yes, I know it has been awhile since I have blogged. My oh my, how the time just flies by. I had stopped blogging for fears of what people thought, and my skills as a writer, and the devil just trying to pin me into a corner.

I just got back on tonight, and when I saw how many people have actually read my page, I was very shocked, because people were actually interested in what I have to say. So with a happy heart and with God’s forever blessing, I say let us move forward.

Moving forward is the only way to go in order to be free. Tonight I will talk about my children’s father. When he decided that he wanted to be free in 2001, (before I knew Christ) I was like okay, but he is always going to have to pay child support for raising our children. The first year, I was full of being a baby mama’s drama. I was ruthless, and could care less about what he thought. I was angry, because it was hard to believe that someone could show so little disregard for our family. I would call and harass him about money, and I was just being less than classy. I remember my mother and grandmother telling me in that first turbulent year that no matter how angry or upset that I am about the situation, that there is no need to harass or even bring up money with him. My words and anger would never get “blood from a turnip.” My hate would never produce positive results. Therefore, with that, I let it go.

 I kept the child support order, but from that day on made a vow to never call or ask for any assistance with our children. No help with birthdays on a consistent basis, and I could forget Christmas, schools supplies, braces, sports, of any kind because  I could  never rely on it, because it never came. Their father knew that no matter if he paid or did not pay that the door was left wide open for him to be involved in their lives. I know many single parents who will not let the other parent see the kids just because they don’t pay child support or do not visit their children often or not at all. In reality there is no amount you could pay a parent to be a parent. Yes, I would receive child support, but it was never the correct amount that was ordered, and I never depended on it. For last few years, I have prayed to my heavenly father that he would spark something in their father’s heart to be involved in their life. Sometimes people assume that they could never recover from something that they believe is lost. That is simply not true. I believe you cannot make up for lost time… but there no better than the time we have right now! If we have to start somewhere…why not now?

So God came up with some ideas… and for over a little over a year their father has started to walk through a door he believed was closed for so long… Praise God…. but God got real crafty and showed up and showed out. I mean God showed up and did a “shock and awe” on everyone’s life last month… No one could have written the brilliant idea God orchestrated… I will tell you what I witnessed to you tomorrow… you do not want to miss it… I promise…

With a happy and so loving heart. I say a big pat on the back to you for doing such a great job, and being who you are. You all were made by the beautiful hand of God! I am smiling, because I am glad to be back to uplift you through my trials. Praise God!

Crystal Jones- Purpose has been granted!