Ramen Noodle Emotional Breakdown

Good day my good people!

I hope all is well.

I don’t know any other way to say what I am about to write. The last 5 months have been atrocious. I lost my job. I moved. I was diagnosed with Lupus. One of my children has the left the home. My children’s father is back. In college, and almost out of mind! Friends are not being friends, people lying, hearts are getting broken. Just a nightmare!

The devil tried it. He tried it. He tried it. No, matter what- he has been more than a nuisance. I have been getting beat up physically, emotionally, mentally, financially, and spiritually. It seems like no matter what I do, or how hard I pray he is intent on giving me an extra hard time! I am all in front of the cross, knowing dang well I should be behind it. I told yall I was going to keep it real from the jump. With that being said, I got so mad and so angry that I mentally envisioned telling Jesus, “Sorry, but I am going to have to cuss some people out, and tell them about themselves.” “They are going to learn today.” (In my Kevin Hart voice) And then I had the nerve to push him mentally out the way while I acted a damn fool. What made it worse was that I no longer had a vision, but I was acting upon my fury.

 What was so puzzling about my less than graceful acts was that I thought Old Crystal was dead. I thought that throughout the years since I have been saved, and working on my walk with God that I had controlled the very thing that has always gotten me in trouble. My TEMPER! My temper reminds me of when I would cook Ramen Noodles as a teen. Apparently, I had my temper on simmer the whole time, and when Satan pushed the stove eye to HI, I boiled over. You know how when you put your Ramen Noodles on HI so they will cook faster, and you start trying to multitask while you’re waiting for the noodles to boil, and then when you hear a sizzling sound and turn to the stove you see that the water is boiling and bubbling out everywhere. You’re in a frantic state. You know where all you can do is lower the temp, but it is still boiling, and then you start blowing on the water so hard that you look like a blowfish in training. LOL.

 I call this the Ramen Noodle Emotional Breakdown. I was HOT! I was all the WAY TURNED UP! As Drake would say, “I Was on One.” Come to think of it, I was on ONE, TWO, THREE, NINETY-NINE…Please do not act like I am the first one to go through a “Ramen Noodle Emotional Breakdown.” I don’t care how Christian, how nice you are, or any of that stuff… EVERYONE HAS A BREAKING POINT.  

I will share what I learned from my experience in the next couple of days.

Give yourself a pat on the back, because you rock. God is still in control.

Amen!

Crystal